What to blog about today??

There's not much new stuff going on in our lives, but I do have a small decision to make (very small), and maybe some of you can help me out with it...(We also have a BIG decision to make, so read past this next paragraph if you want to get to the interesting part!)

I have an iPhone (the 2G), and I LOVE it. But I have the opportunity to "upgrade" to a Blackberry and I can't decide if I want to do that. (See, I told you it was a very small decision.) ;-) My iPhone has never failed me, and it is so darn easy to use. Plus, the Facebook, eBay, and iPod apps right there on the screen are the apps I use the most. The colors are bright and pretty, the photo app is amazing (I have more than 1,000 pictures stored on my iPhone, with room to spare), AND I have a Bible app on it. Too cool. The only downside of the iPhone seems to be email...Apple is definitely lacking that area. Of course, Blackberry is known for its fabulous email. But, um, that's about it. Okay, so I've pretty much made up my mind...I'm keeping my iPhone. I mean, why mess with a good (free) thing??

Now for the big decision...

Brad and I have been discussing the option of doing in vitro once again. Jacob is 19 months old, and my baby fever is kicking into high gear. I go back and forth though...I love sleeping more than three hours at a time, not having to use bottles, and the independence that Jacob has. He doesn't do well when Brad or I pick up another baby/child. And by "doesn't do well" I mean he throws a temper tantrum. Big time. We're loving spending quality time with him, and don't know if that would last should he have a little brother or sister. We wouldn't start the whole IVF process until Jacob is two years old, just so we can try on our own and see if it could happen "naturally." I'm so confident in God's ability to perform miracles, that I know it can happen if He so decides. :-) I also know that we were put through the trials of IVF for a reason...Brad's and my relationship grew (in ways they never would have, had we not gone through that time together), my relationship with the Lord grew, and my relationship with MYSELF grew. I learned how strong I could be.

After I had Jacob everything changed (didn't I mention that in an earlier post??), including my job. Which was for the BETTER. I'm just so amazed every day how God has worked everything out in our lives. It blows my mind. What I'm doing now wasn't a "career" move for me, but something I thought I'd want to do while Jacob was young. Man, I got FAR more than I'd ever hoped or dreamed. My relationship with the Lord has blossomed over the past year, and let me tell you, Satan really has been trying to get me down. In so many ways, that I won't go into here. Unless you just HAVE to know. ;-) But it's so great to work in an environment where other Christians help you grow in your faith.

Anywho, because of my change in jobs, I also make a little less--okay, a lot less!--$$. Which, even if given the opportunity to make what I did in my last job for another job, I wouldn't take it. The positives of this job FAR outweigh any amount of money I could be given. How cool is it that Brad, Jacob and I all ride together to work/daycare? (Jacob goes to daycare here at the church where Brad and I work.) But IVF takes money, which we just don't have right now. (Even though my wonderful parents have said they'd foot the bill, which they did for Jacob, I hate that we have to go to them. But geez, they are just such a blessing to us, I have to say that!) Having a baby takes money, which we don't have right now. And sending a baby to daycare takes money, which we also don't have right now.

So you see our decision is huge! One that will take lots and lots of prayer. Please pray for us, that we make the right decision.